So I am not usually one to vent my frustrations and aire my problems on a board such as this, but I figure since it is a blog then you can choose to read or not read it and therefore I am not being bothersome to anyone :)
For anyone who reads here quite frequently you will know that I also have sleep issues with Brennan. About 3 weeks ago DH and I came up with a plan of action. Step 1 was to break him of the pacifier habit and Step 2 was to get him self soothing. I am happy to say that we have completed Step 1 and have been pacifier free for almost 3 weeks.
You may wonder why I have chosen to take the pacifier from him and the reason is because he was waking up each time he lost it during the night. I was up atleast 10 times a night. I guess that should make me happy as I am now up 2 times a night, but Brennan is also sleeping in my bed with me. So really all I have managed to do it replace one bad habit with another. Now I realize co-sleeping isn't necessarily a 'bad habit', however, that was not our goal at the beginning of this.
To top things off, Brennan is getting about 4 or 5 teeth right now. I can see two that are definitely breaking through the gum and can feel atleast 2 others ready to breakthrough. So I am up twice during the night and he is not napping during the day. He'll nap if I hold him but the minute I go to lay him down he eyes pop open. Then he wants in my arms, out of my arms, screams, in my arms, squirms, back down to play, cries, back in my arms, grabs at my hair and face, back down to play, screams....you get the point!
I feel like I am going to lose it. I mean normally I feel like I am a good mother and lately I really feel like a mean ol' witch. I snap at Aidan when he doesn't deserve it, I get annoyed with Brennan which makes me feel completely guilty, and I am saying and feeling things that make me feel ill. I called Brennan a 'leach' the other day out of frustration and not only did I feel bad about it but I upset my husband as well. But I honestly don't think he gets it. He has no clue what it is like.
And just to throw some more into my mix, one of my uncles who lives on the east coast passed away and my parents have left for New Brunswick for 5 days, leaving my sister and I to care for and make arrangements for my 9 year old nephew.
And to think...people think that I am 'off' work!!!